Courageous Bhebhe

I cannot thank God enough for what He has done for Bhebhe. I often view her pictures in my computer… I look at her beautiful face that full of hope and inspiration; that ailment is not a hindrance to enjoy life… Every time this things come across my mind, I always start to cry… I really miss her so much…

” Life is too short – don’t miss the good stuff. Open your eyes and let it all in.” That's exactly what Bhebhe said and she did it in the last 10 years of her life. What I admired her for is grabbing those opportunities, expressing herself in every way possible through words and living life in such a big way with such carefree energy and enthusiasm. Although I traveled with Bhebhe through the last painful 5 years of her life I still cannot wrap my mind around the outcome the fact that she is no longer here. What I have now is a testimony to the power of a sister’s love and courage.

Bhebhe told me sometime in October before she died about her plans for her children and wandering what we would be when we are already old and have grandchildren. On that simple way of hope and positive thinking, she shaped my whole life. Whether running toward her, away from her or with her I defined myself in relation to my beloved sister.

Today I define myself as a bearer of her spirit. She’s always with me because she remained in my heart. And Bhebhe’s spirit is so easy to access. She threw her soul to the wind and let it fall where it would. She made her job through giving us encouragement despite her health condition, connecting with people and God. She bravely faced her death and commended her spirit to Almighty God. She never asked any questions about how she felt and what is God’s plan for her. I admired her so much for her infinite faith in God and truly that her courage inspired me to struggle whatever circumstances I might have in this cruel world.

This is just my simple message to her…

Bhe, you will always stay beautiful from the inside out… Your incredible faith in God will serve as my strength and inspiration. I have learned from you that I have to trust God in everything because He will never forsake His children. You will always be a dear sister and great friend of mine. I will miss you dearly but I promise you that I will just embrace the wonderful memories you created in my heart forever...